“Me, My Alts and I”

There are many kinds of support in our lives. Yesterday I was going to my therapy appointment in real life… and then in Second Life, I was chatting with one of my best friends, Chrome Underwood. Not only an amazing artist, but a gracious, sweet, caring, witty and OMG intelligent guy. Thank you for always listening and offering your unstinting words of wisdom and kindness. (And Douglas if you’re reading this, you know I feel the exact same way about you!! )

“Me, My Alts and I”

Alt: “Alternate accounts… multiple identities… We all have them in some way or another. Perhaps in real life you’re an entrepreneur in the morning, soccer mom in the afternoon, and vegetarian chef in the evening. In Second Life, you get to externalize these roles in customized, uniquely identifiable personas – otherwise known as alt accounts. How cool is that?” (https://support.secondlife.com/)

So as always, I have been tirelessly thinking about this project. Sometimes I am stuck. Other times ideas just come to me with no idea where they came from.

I was sitting here with the girls thinking about where this project is going? what it will become? where my journey will take me? You know, all those serious deep questions we all ponder in our lifetimes.

I have already thought that I want to make this project into a book. Especially the “Days” portion of it. I have also been working on a couple other offshoot projects. One called “The Adventures of Gracie Kendal” and another “Me, My Alts and I” which will be installed the beginning of next year sometime. I realized that these are actually chapters in this whole project. I’m really excited to see where these go, that’s for sure.

Speaking of chapters… So often people talk about chapters in our lives. One chapter ends, another begins and so forth. I look at my life and feel its a postmodern book. My chapters seem to overlap, disconnect, go backwards, go against the status quo (whatever that is) and question my own identity. In this ecclectic pastiche (I love that phrase) of a book, I often think about the last chapter. What would it say? Would it be a mash-up of greatest hits from my life? Or a final wish fulfilling, fairy tale happy ending? Would I be depressed because I didn’t achieve what I wanted? What do I want? What are my hopes, dreams and wishes? What makes me happy? That is what this book is about. This is what my journey is for. I don’t want to end in that last chapter asking myself why I didn’t do this or that. What my life was about? What happened to me? I don’t want any regrets.

Speak for yourself… or threesome?

Gracie- Sooooo, I see you are trying something out here, aren’t you?

Kris- Ummm yea, a little bit.

Gracie- Tell me about it.

Kris- Well I had an alt from a while ago. Well ok a year and a half ago. I never really used it. In fact, when I just logged on, it was still the newbie, cybergirl goth figure.

G- hahaha, yea, I saw that.

K- So I took her shopping today. As I was shopping, I started thinking about what I wanted her to be like.

G- Yea?

K- Yea. I decided to see what it would feel like to create a figure whose body image was more like mine. I remembered seeing Harper modeling plus size Second Life fashion so I went back and looked up where she got her shape.

G- Oh wow. I am liking this already.

K- Yea, I found the place and actually got a free shape. I think it’s still a bit thinner than I am in RL. At least it isn’t as big in the thighs and the breasts are A LOT bigger.

G- Haha, yea, I saw that. You can have fun with that though.

K- Mmmhmmm sure. Haha.

G- So then what did you do.

K- Well I went and bought a skin and hair that Harper also recommended and I decided to get clothes similar to mine. And actually, they are similar to yours too.

G- Hmmmm, why did you do that?

K- Well I wanted her to be more like me. Like I am right now, this moment in RL. I know you wear similar clothes and shoes that I wear, but you are what I want to be like. Not what I am right now.

G- Hmmmm…

K- Yea, yea, yea. I know. Need to think more about why I am doing this. Anyway. So I got hair, glasses, shoes, everything. And as you can see in today’s picture, I think she is pretty darn close. The hair is a little lighter. Ok a lot lighter. But I am going to remedy that in RL pretty soon.

G- Yay!!! It’s about time.

K- Yea. I know. I decided I am sooo tired of looking warn out, tired etc. I want to look better. And I think treating myself to a new hair-do will help a lot.

G- Yea, totally. Good for you.

K- Thanks. So question for you? Who is that hot guy your dancing with.

G- Oh stop that. You know who it is. It’s you.

K- Hahaha, yea, I know I know. So how do you feel dancing with yourself?

G- Hmmm well I’m dancing with you.

K- Yea, and I am you. So you are dancing with me, and I am dancing with you, right?

G- Hmmm ok. So I guess I am dancing with myself?

K- Yea. And I am dancing with myself.

G- So how do you feel about that?

K- Well the dialogue seems to get pretty interesting. But I do yearn for more stimulating conversation.

G- Hey now!!! That’s not fair. I think I am pretty stimulating.

K- Haha. Yea, but it’s not as much fun by yourself.

G- Speak for yourself.

What a girl wants…

Gracie- So what are you thinking?

Kris- Hmmmm actually I haven’t been thinking much and it’s been nice.

G- Oh yea?

K- Yea. My last day of school was Thursday and just been working the last 4 days.

G- Oh yea, thats right, You haven’t even been in second life very much lately.

K- Yea, I know. Been too busy working and sleeping as you can tell.

G- So what is new. I know you’ve been reading that book.

K- Oh yea. “Eat Pray Love.” It reminds me of the conversations we have together.

G- Oh yea?

K- Yea. The Author also has similar conversations with herself. Her inner soul. Her unconscious/subconscious. It’s pretty amazing.

G- Well I could have told you that. I really like talking to you.

K- Yea. Me too. When we first started, I wasn’t sure if I was going crazy. I also wondered if the people who read this would think I was going crazy.

G- Who cares what other people think. You sooo need to get over that and btw, you aren’t going crazy. Well ok, maybe you already are. But you’re an artist so comes with the territory.

K- Hahaha. Well don’t tell my Art History Professor. But Yea, I know I agree. I tend to believe in a lot of the tropes that artists are known by. This book  though, actually is helping. I am reading about myself in the words of the author Elizabeth Gilbert. I feel like this book was written about me.

G- Yea?

K- Well some of the life experiences are different of course. But, her thoughts, ideas, emotions, personality seem so much like my own. And I am realizing, it is ok to feel as I do. To think as I do. To act as I do.

G- Wow, that is a huge idea.

K- Yea. I know. I have been hiding for way too long. I am tired of hiding. I know I have a long way to go in finding myself. I am already on this journey, but I feel like I am getting somewhere.

G- That’s great.

K- Yea. I mean I admit I still am not eating that well. I am eating a little better than I was, but still have had M&M’s and Ice Cream.

G- Well, that’s ok. You don’t want to totally deprive yourself.

K- Well yea. I need to learn the phrase “everything in moderation.” I hear it all the time, but don’t know how to implement it yet. It is something I need to learn.

G- Yea.

K- I think I am a lot less stressed since school ended too.

G- Yea, I can sense that. You seem a little more like yourself.

K- Hmmm that is an interesting statement. “You seem a little more like yourself.” What do you mean?

G- Well, I think, especially seeing you at work, that you are more open and outgoing. Not that you weren’t before, but you seem to be smiling more and talking to people more.

K- Well I think that has a lot to do with the work environment lately. The last 4 days I’ve worked have been very smooth. The people I have worked with have been really great to be around. And I have been less stressed. So I think it’s a combination of things.

G- Yea, but you are feeling better, aren’t you?

K- Yea, I am. But again, I think its because I am less stressed. I actually did my Christmas cards and am trying to get in the Christmas spirit. Even listening to Christmas music at work.

G- Oh yea, I think everyone is getting sick of that by the way.

K- Hahaha. Well, it’s not loud, and I think It’s probably gonna get old fast anyway.

G- Ok.

K- I decided I want to volunteer somewhere. Help out with a charity. With people who are less fortunate than I am. Jan gave me info on MEND, and I realized that CSUN is also involved with them. I have the application and am going to volunteer a couple hours a week I think.

G- WOW, that’s great.

K- Yea. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want lately. What makes me happy. Honestly, I haven’t been able to name much that makes me happy. I was trying to think of instances where I have been truelly ecstatic, and what made me that way. I could hardly think of any.  I honestly don’t know. Maybe I haven’t experienced being truelly happy yet.

G- Wow you need to get on that then.

K- Yea, I know. I know. Hmmm just thought of one time I was happy. It had to do with a guy. We had talked and decided to date and he kissed me. Just a little peck, but it was really great. I remember afterwards feeling light as a feather and so excited about the possibilities. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out. I wish they would have, but they didn’t. Another time I was happy was when I was in Europe. I remember walking through Paris, thinking…OMG I’m in Paris. I’M IN PARIS!!!

G- So what you’re saying is having a lover and traveling around the world would make you happy.

K- Ummmm yea, I think so… Hahahaha

G- Well you know what you have to do then.

K- Mmmmmhmmmmm

In the Blink of an Eye…

Kris- I found you out.

Gracie- What do you mean?

Kris- Nice try. I have seen what you do when I’m not looking.

Gracie- Oh, ummmm, yea. That.

Kris- mmmhmmm

Gracie- Oh, You can’t tell me that you don’t do stuff behind my back!?!?

Kris- Hahaha, yea, right!! Like what? I am a good girl.

Gracie- Yea, right!! Now who is hiding?

Kris- Hmmmm, I honestly can’t think of anything outrageous I’ve done.

Gracie- Oh, I’m sure you can. Think about it. Who flew to Scotland ? Who stayed in that hotel with…

Kris- Hey, stop it right there… I know where you’re going with that…

Gracie- What are you afraid of? What you did was totally natural. I mean you actually….

Kris- Heyyyy.

Gracie- Date is not a bad word.

Kris- Ohhhh, that is what you were going to say.

Gracie- Ummm yea, What did you think?

Kris- Nothing. Nevermind.

Gracie- Well, whatever. What happened to you the last few months? Why did you stop dating?

Kris- I don’t know. That is a good question.

Gracie- Well, you need to get back to it.

Kris- Yea. I know. I really want to.

Gracie- Well, what is stopping you?

Kris- I don’t know. Maybe I’m afraid.

Gracie- Afraid of what? Rejection?

Kris- Well, yea a bit.

Gracie- Well you better get over that really fast. Rejection is a part of life.

Kris- Oh yea, I am already painfully aware of that.

Gracie- Well, you can’t let things get in your way, no matter what they are. There will always be obstacles, hurdles to overcome. You just have to keep trudging along.

Kris- Oh yea, I know. I have always felt that life is too short. We have to live in the moment. From my life experiences, especially working in the ER, I know that life can change in the blink of an eye.

Gracie- Yea of course. Are you really satisfied with your life right now, if something were to happen?

Kris- That is a very good question. There are some things I am satisfied with. But I feel there is so much more out there. So much more life to live.

Gracie- So why aren’t you living it?

Kris- I’m trying. I’m working on it. I want to be happy. Sometimes I don’t know what that feels like. It’s been a long time since I think I’ve truely felt happy. I want to enjoy life and have fun. I haven’t done that in a long time.

Gracie- Well I think you know what you need to do. Maybe learning to pole dance like I did will help? It was quite a thrill. Don’t know if I’m gonna do it often, but It felt good and free.

Kris- Hmmmmm yea I totally would, it’s just finding the money to do it.

Gracie- Oh, you’ll figure it out. Maybe you can advertise, “Will trade Art for pole dancing lessons?” You’ve gotten pretty good at bartering.

Kris- Hahaha, yea, we’ll see. Actually, have thought of learning belly dancing too. So there is Yoga, Pole dancing and Belly dancing. Hmmmm.

Gracie- Ohhhh gooo for it. Trust me, those are all such fulfilling, sexy activities. You will love it. But you have to promise to check into it. You totally flaked on going to the yoga loft the other day.

Kris- Yea, I know. I did. But have you checked into teaching?

Gracie- Yes, actually I did and I am working on it.

Kris- Ok then.

Gracie- Ok then.

Don’t tell Kris…

Gracie- Don’t tell Kris, but this is what I do when she isn’t around!!

Bargaining…

Kris- So I see you have been dancing a lot eh?

Gracie- Ummmm yea, I have.  So what about it?

Kris- Nothing, Just noticing you are getting out a little more.

Gracie- Well I can say the same thing about you.

Kris- Well, out of the house, yea. But not necessarily out meeting new people like you are.

Gracie- Yea, well I decided I was tired of just doing the same things. So I went to a Jazz club and actually had a good time. Met a new friend and had a great talk.

Kris- Yea, he seemed pretty nice.

Gracie- Hey, quit eavesdropping on my dates.

Kris- Oh, your date now, huh? I see.

Gracie- Ummmm, well we were just dancing.

Kris- Uh huh.

Gracie- So I see you are getting out a bit more.

Kris- Way to change the subject I see.

Gracie- Uh huh.

Kris- Well yes and no. I mean I’m here in front of the puter talking to you aren’t I?

Gracie- Um yea, why is that? I thought you had a lot to do.

Kris- Well, I have a few things, but have the day off so have plenty of time.

Gracie- Yea, but weren’t you just telling Peter, that you felt guilty that it’s 11 and you haven’t done much today?

Kris- Now who is eavesdropping?

Gracie- Well, fair is fair.

Kris- Uh huh.

Gracie- Yea… so I see you are still sitting there.

Kris- And so are you? Don’t you have something to do?

Gracie- Hey, I have been taking care of art stuff all day long, hanging a show, talking to a gallery about another one, planning an opening… I’ve been busy.

Kris- Ok Ok. So have you looked into teaching in Second Life yet?

Gracie- Ummm no, as you can tell I’ve been busy.

Kris- Uh huh.. dancing, yes I know. I see.

Gracie- Ok, I’ll look into it today, if you go to the Yoga Loft?

Kris- Ohhhh what is that, bargaining?

Gracie- Mmmmmhmmmmm

Kris- Ok Ok.  You’re on.

I can fly!!!

Gracie- So, last night I was looking at someone’s profile, and under their first life tab it said, “Pretty much exactly the same in RL (real life) as in SL (second life). Well, aside from the fashionable clothing, perfect body, extroverted personality, and ability to fly.”

Kris- Haha, yea that pretty much says it all.

Gracie- Yea.  I gotta tell ya, I am sooo happy I can fly and you can’t.

Kris- Haha, yea, funny considering I’m afraid to fly.

Gracie- Well I’d be afraid you’d hurt yourself. I mean you better not go jumping off any buildings or anything or build wings of wax and get too close to the sun.

Kris- You just think you’re so funny, don’t you??

Gracie- Yea sometimes I do

Kris- I hate flying in ‘planes’… brat!

Gracie- Ahhhhh, well, I’m not. In fact I am actually a pilot.

Kris- Yea, yea, I know. You have overcome a lot of fears haven’t you? Maybe I should take pilot lessons?

Gracie- Hmmmm, baby steps, I think. First you need to be able to eat whatever you want. You need to overcome other fears.

Kris- yea, I know. I realized as I’ve gotten older I am more afraid. I don’t know why that is. I used to be fearless or somewhat fearless. Well more fearless than I am now.

Gracie- Well you flew to Europe didn’t you? I mean that is huge.

Kris- Yes it is. I was proud of myself. But it was something I really wanted to do. I needed to do it. I had to do it. Actually it was an escape at the time. Just like Second Life was/is.

Gracie- Do you still think Second Life is an escape?

Kris- Well no, not as much. I don’t come into Second Life, to get away from real life anymore like I did. Now I come in because of art and my friends. Well, ok, thinking about it, I do come inworld sometimes as a way to escape my feelings. Although, I am realizing, that there is really no escape even in Second Life. You feel what I feel. When I am lonely, you are lonely.

Gracie- Yes, I know. I hate that. Why is that? Why are you ok we, so lonely?

Kris- I don’t know. That is a great question. I think that is what I am trying to find out. That is a path I need to explore on this journey of finding myself. Maybe I have been alone way too long? Maybe it has to do with my self esteem and self confidence? Maybe I was just meant to be alone? I don’t know.

Gracie- Hmmmm, well at least you are aware of it. That’s a start. It is something to think about. Aren’t you going to get into Yoga? That will help you on this journey.

Kris- Yea, I am going tomorrow to a place not too far away from  me. I’m gonna talk to them about maybe working for them a few hours a week in exchange for taking yoga classes. I think it would be really beneficial for me in all respects.

Gracie- Yea I think it’s a great idea. What else are you working on?

Kris- Well, I am finishing putting together a 5 year professional development plan for my life.

Gracie- Wow, no wonder you have been depressed lately…geesh!!!

Kris- Yea I know. I think this is part of it. I mean honestly, I don’t know what is going to happen in 5 years time.

Gracie- Well no one does. But at least you are trying to figure it out so you have some ideas.

Kris- Yea.

Gracie- So what are you thinking?

Kris- Well, I am looking at teaching again, artist residencies and the MFA program.

Gracie- WOW, that is a lot to think about. I think you should totally go back to teaching. I will help you however I can. In fact, I think we should work on lecturing in Second Life too. We had a great time talking about your project the other day.

Kris- Yea, I know. I have thought of that. But have no idea where to begin on getting into that. I think that is where I’m stuck on a lot of stuff. Where to begin. It’s so daunting.

Gracie- Yea, but the end result will totally be worth it.

Kris- Yea, I know. I will have a more fulfilling life, that’s for sure. That’s what I want. What I yearn for.

Gracie- Yea, I know. Even I yearn for that.

Kris- Yea, funny, I have realized your life isn’t any more perfect than mine.

Gracie- You’re just realizing this??? Geezzzzz

Kris- yea, I should have known. I mean when we do something ditzy, all our friends laugh and call it “pulling a Gracie.”

Gracie- Yea yea yea. I don’t know if ditzy is the same as not being perfect.

Kris- Ok true. Ok off to finish some stuff. Thanks for the chat.

Gracie- Sure, anytime

Am I real?

Gracie- Am I real?

Kris- Wow, that’s a deep question.

G- Well, some people have said I’m not real.

K- Does it matter what other people think?

G- No of course not, but It still concerns me.

K- Well, I think you’re a representation of me, you’re my inner conscious, you are me and I’m real. So yea, you are real.

G- Phew!! I was scared for a minute.

K- Well we can get into a deeper discussion of what is real.

G- No thanks. It’s been covered so much. I mean look at “The Matrix” and of course Baudrillard talks about it in depth when he refers to the simulacrum and the hyper-real. I mean, Is that really what the project is about in the first place?

K- No.

G- So tell me then, what is the project about?

K- Well in universal terms it’s about identity. Personally, it’s about finding myself, my own identity, where I’m most comfortable, where I fit in in the world.

G- Hmmmmm.

K- What do you mean, hmmmmm?

G- Well how do I fit in then?

K- You are the project. I am using you…

G- OMG, you’re using me??

K- Stop it. You didn’t let me finish.

G- Ok Ok

K- You are my self portrait. You are how I want to represent myself.

G- Ok, I understand that. So now my question is, why?

K- Hmmmm. I think we have talked about this before, but honestly do I need to answer that? Did Picasso explain why he painted his self portrait the way he did? Or Magritte, or Van Gogh? Well Ok, Van Gogh probably did.

G- Ok True. But I think I’m a little more than a self portrait. I’m your alter ego. I’m the angel and devil that sit on your shoulders. I am you. Look at Duchamp and his work Rrose Selavy. She was Duchamp dressed up as a Jewish woman. He was totally dealing with identity too.

K- Oh yea, absolutely. He is a huge influence.

G- So what is the difference? You are using me to explore identity, to explore your identity as a cute, thin, successful woman artist who owns a home, has 3 dogs and a great art collection?

K- Yea, actually. To explore someone/something I am not, YET. Is it wish fulfillment? Yes. Is it fantasy? I’m not sure because all of these things are possible. I guess there is the larger question of reality vs. fantasy.

G- Yea, that’s true. Have you come to any conclusions?

K- No, actually. I don’t think I need to. This project is a journey, an exploration. I learn things along the way, sure, but I realized I don’t want this to be like “The Biggest Loser.” This is not just about issues of body image, even though that’s part of it. The support is amazing, but I know what I need to do to work through my issues. The journey is not one of transformation like I originally thought, rather it’s a way to discover who I am, what I like, where I’m going, etc.

G- That makes sense. So how are you going to continue this journey? Where are you headed next?

K- I don’t know, that’s the exciting part. I am very excited about this project. I am not the only person with a crisis of identity. People have them all the time. That’s what mid-life crises are all about. Identity issues such as gender, race and weight are huge in our society right now. It’s nothing new.

G- Yea, that’s true. Especially with the age of technology we are all living in. With the internet, people play with identity all the time via email addresses, profile pictures and instant message names. Even license plates and nicknames that people have. We all have different identities depending on what we’re doing. Whether at home with the kids, on the phone with your boyfriend, at work, out with friends, talking with the parents, we all wear different masks, hide different aspects of ourselves.

K- Yea definitely. Although it’s funny, with you I feel freer to be all of those at once. I feel like I don’t have to hide.

G- Yea, that’s interesting. I wonder why that is? Especially since you sit in front of a computer screen at home in virtual isolation. It’s weird how you turn on the computer go into Second Life and a whole world opens up.

K- Well that’s why I started. I was suffocating in real life.

G- Yea.

K- Having a Second Life, has given me the ability to have a better more fulfilling first life.

G- Hmmm I think we may need to delve into that more.

K- Yea maybe.

What lies beneath…

Gracie- Where have you been?

Kris- I’ve been here, where have you been?

Gracie- I’ve been here too. Apparently we have missed each other.

Kris- Awwww, you missed me? Thanks.

G- Well that’s not what I meant, but yea, I guess I did.

K- Thanks.

G- So where have you been? You haven’t talked to me in a couple days.

K- Yea, I know. I worked 4 12 hour days in a row at the hospital and yesterday just wasn’t up to it.

G- Well that’s when you really NEED to talk to me. Maybe I can help.

K- I wish you could, but I don’t think so. I have just been feeling miserable, physically.

G- Ahhhh, well yea, I can’t really help much there. Accept to say, be sure to take care of yourself.

K- Yea, I’m trying to.

G- So what is new? I know you had a critique in class last night, how did it go?

K- Oh it was pretty good actually. Very intense, for me at least. I could feel myself shaking a little bit, but it’s pretty personal and difficult content I am dealing with so of course I am going to feel strongly about it.

G- So what did you guys talk about?

K- Well actually, someone thought that maybe you are being objectified.

G- Oh really??? Hmmmmm. I don’t think I am. Do you?

K- No, I don’t either. But we had a discussion about what that kinda means in real life as well as second life. The idea came across that women who are beautiful, thin etc, are always galked at, looked at, gazed upon and that that is a bad thing and maybe they aren’t taken seriously.

G- Hmmm well I can kinda see that. But isn’t the same true for people who are overweight?

K- Yes, exactly. Someone else brought up the Tyra Banks show where she dressed in a fat suit. She found out that people who are overweight are also not taken seriously. They are pre-judged and looked down upon. The movie “Shallow Hal” was brought up too. I need to watch that again actually.

G- Yea, isn’t that how you feel.

K- Yea, in a way. I think that is a part of it for me. Maybe it’s my experience, but I equate being overweight with not having as fulfilling a life as I want.

G- Hmmmmm.

K- Well, not that I want to be married per se, but I am still single. I have dated, yes, they never last very long. That just reinforces to me that I am not attractive enough.

G- I don’t think that is true. I  mean come on, the guys you have dated have had issues of their own. For whatever reason. I think you were too good for them.

K- Well, I always say, it’s their loss, but still. Why wasn’t I good enough. Why not me?

G- Do you think living a fulfilling life has anything to do with having a partner?

K- No, not entirely. I think it’s different for everyone. But I feel that that is the one thing I am missing. I think intimacy is an amazing part of life. Everyone needs to be held, comforted and loved. I was thinking that I haven’t even had a good hug from anyone in a while. Which led me to missing my dad a lot.

G- Yea, I know. Me too. If you want to take a minute to cry, I’ll still be here.

K- Thx.

…

Ice cream is easy. Life is Hard…

Gracie- What’s up?

Kris- Oh, another day another dollar.

G- Hmmmm well you’re just lucky to have a job.

K- Oh yea, I’m not complaining. I don’t mind. I just wish I could concentrate on art more. I have so many ideas going through my head, I feel I don’t have enough time in the day to do everything I wanted.

G- Sounds to me like those high expectations of yourself are coming into play again. You can only do so much.

K- Yea I know, I know.

G- So I was looking at today, day 27.

K- Yea?

G- Yea. What’s going on? Why compare us like that?

K- Well yesterday I weighed myself at work.

G- Oh geez. Not a good sign.

K- No it wasn’t. Remember a couple weeks ago, when i said I didn’t want to go above 200 lbs?

G- Ummm yea?

K- Well, I did. Yesterday I weighed 206.7 lbs.

G- Oh you had to add that extra .7 in there did ya?

K- Well, yea!! Although hopefully that is just water weight..haha

G- So why are you telling me this?

K- Oh I don’t know.. because it’s on my mind. I looked back and found in March of this year, I only weighed 165. So I gained 41 lbs.

G- 41.2

K- You’re so funny!!

G- Yea, I know    Seriously though, what are you thinking? I mean you had to know that eating all that ice cream and those bags of M&M’s would make you fat.   Do you know why I’m not fat?

K- Ummmmm, because you can’t eat?

G- Ok, well besides that fact? By the way, thank you for pointing that out Ms. Smartypants!!

K- Well I guess I have to say, because I don’t want you to be fat.

G- Yes, exactly. Why can’t you use that same thinking for yourself?

K- I know, you’re right, but much easier said than done.

G- Sighs!!! It’s all in your mind. Just think about it.