Gracie- So, last night I was looking at someone’s profile, and under their first life tab it said, “Pretty much exactly the same in RL (real life) as in SL (second life). Well, aside from the fashionable clothing, perfect body, extroverted personality, and ability to fly.”
Kris- Haha, yea that pretty much says it all.
Gracie- Yea. I gotta tell ya, I am sooo happy I can fly and you can’t.
Kris- Haha, yea, funny considering I’m afraid to fly.
Gracie- Well I’d be afraid you’d hurt yourself. I mean you better not go jumping off any buildings or anything or build wings of wax and get too close to the sun.
Kris- You just think you’re so funny, don’t you??
Gracie- Yea sometimes I do 😛
Kris- I hate flying in ‘planes’… brat!
Gracie- Ahhhhh, well, I’m not. In fact I am actually a pilot.
Kris- Yea, yea, I know. You have overcome a lot of fears haven’t you? Maybe I should take pilot lessons?
Gracie- Hmmmm, baby steps, I think. First you need to be able to eat whatever you want. You need to overcome other fears.
Kris- yea, I know. I realized as I’ve gotten older I am more afraid. I don’t know why that is. I used to be fearless or somewhat fearless. Well more fearless than I am now.
Gracie- Well you flew to Europe didn’t you? I mean that is huge.
Kris- Yes it is. I was proud of myself. But it was something I really wanted to do. I needed to do it. I had to do it. Actually it was an escape at the time. Just like Second Life was/is.
Gracie- Do you still think Second Life is an escape?
Kris- Well no, not as much. I don’t come into Second Life, to get away from real life anymore like I did. Now I come in because of art and my friends. Well, ok, thinking about it, I do come inworld sometimes as a way to escape my feelings. Although, I am realizing, that there is really no escape even in Second Life. You feel what I feel. When I am lonely, you are lonely.
Gracie- Yes, I know. I hate that. Why is that? Why are you ok we, so lonely?
Kris- I don’t know. That is a great question. I think that is what I am trying to find out. That is a path I need to explore on this journey of finding myself. Maybe I have been alone way too long? Maybe it has to do with my self esteem and self confidence? Maybe I was just meant to be alone? I don’t know.
Gracie- Hmmmm, well at least you are aware of it. That’s a start. It is something to think about. Aren’t you going to get into Yoga? That will help you on this journey.
Kris- Yea, I am going tomorrow to a place not too far away from me. I’m gonna talk to them about maybe working for them a few hours a week in exchange for taking yoga classes. I think it would be really beneficial for me in all respects.
Gracie- Yea I think it’s a great idea. What else are you working on?
Kris- Well, I am finishing putting together a 5 year professional development plan for my life.
Gracie- Wow, no wonder you have been depressed lately…geesh!!!
Kris- Yea I know. I think this is part of it. I mean honestly, I don’t know what is going to happen in 5 years time.
Gracie- Well no one does. But at least you are trying to figure it out so you have some ideas.
Gracie- So what are you thinking?
Kris- Well, I am looking at teaching again, artist residencies and the MFA program.
Gracie- WOW, that is a lot to think about. I think you should totally go back to teaching. I will help you however I can. In fact, I think we should work on lecturing in Second Life too. We had a great time talking about your project the other day.
Kris- Yea, I know. I have thought of that. But have no idea where to begin on getting into that. I think that is where I’m stuck on a lot of stuff. Where to begin. It’s so daunting.
Gracie- Yea, but the end result will totally be worth it.
Kris- Yea, I know. I will have a more fulfilling life, that’s for sure. That’s what I want. What I yearn for.
Gracie- Yea, I know. Even I yearn for that.
Kris- Yea, funny, I have realized your life isn’t any more perfect than mine.
Gracie- You’re just realizing this??? Geezzzzz
Kris- yea, I should have known. I mean when we do something ditzy, all our friends laugh and call it “pulling a Gracie.”
Gracie- Yea yea yea. I don’t know if ditzy is the same as not being perfect.
Kris- Ok true. Ok off to finish some stuff. Thanks for the chat.
Gracie- Sure, anytime 😛