Gracie: So are you gonna answer me??
Kris: Why should I? You know where I’ve been.
Kris: Ok Ok… Things have been, ummmm crazy? hectic? lost? depressing? scary? I don’t know. I can’t explain it right now.
Gracie: Well try. You are not the only one going through this post grad funk. Have you ever thought of my feelings? I am in the same kind of funk too.
Kris: You are? Yea I guess so. You were the center of attention for a while with the whole project, and now it’s slowed down and you don’t know what to do with yourself, eh?
Gracie: OMG you think that is why? Pffft… I can do without the attention. I am not THAT egotistical…geeesh. I just miss you. You haven’t talked to me in ages. Where have you been?
Kris: I guess I have kind of hidden away for a bit. I am trying to tone down my computer usage. I sit in front of the computer 12 hours a day at work, and I come home and go on the computer. I need to get out into the sun every once in a while.
Gracie: Sighs… The Sun. How I wish… well never mind this isn’t about me.
Kris: Yea, the last few months, I have gotten deeper in trouble I think. My eating is atrocious, I don’t exercise, all I do is work and sleep, and ok paint.
Gracie: Well that is something. I mean painting is a huge part of your life. I love your new works, btw. Do you?
Kris: Yea, especially the ones I’m working on right now.
Gracie: yea, loving the colors. So what has changed? What brought you back “down to earth,” “to reality” so to speak?
Kris: Well, good question actually. I’m just tired of living this way. I realized I have to rewire my brain. I used to be so positive. And I still am, but recently been harboring a lot of negative thoughts about myself. I need to change that and be more positive. I want to set goals: Pay off bills, become healthy, be able to exercise without getting out of breath, decide what I want to do for my future, because it sure the hell isn’t this. I mean living the way I am right now.
Gracie: WOW, Kris, you sure are cussing a lot.
Kris: Hahaha yea, I guess I am. Sorry.
Gracie: Don’t apologize. I mean what the fuck, it helps sometimes to get out your aggressions.
Kris: Hahaha, unless you’re just doing it to do it.
Gracie: Ok I know… I don’t cuss much, it’s not respectful and just unclassy.
Kris: Yes exactly.
Gracie: So anywho, Welcome back. I hope to see you more here. Talk to me, that’s what I’m here for.
Kris: I know. I will.
Gracie: and Kris…
Gracie: I love you!!! Don’t ever forget it. Even when you think no one else does. And you feel alone, which I know you do. I am here, and I love you. I am your friend. I am you, and I love you!!!!