Ugh!! Today I have not been in the best mood. You’d think I was PMSing or something. Everything and everyone has been so annoying. From the overstimulation at work including an over talkative Dr to the competing radio stations to … Continue reading
I need to paint!!! I have been procrastinating big time. I have 3 ‘avatars’ in front of me that need color!! Ok tomorrow!! (I work today) While tackling my to-do list, which includes painting, I will at least finish epoxying … Continue reading
Some sketches I’m playing with for my next project…
Imagine 32 avatars bordering the virtual and the physical worlds through sculpture and video protection.
The title comes from the statement that I have been making for years that “I’m not comfortable in my own skin.” By using my paintings as a skin I become more comfortable in the beauty of the color, texture, pattern and design rather than the aesthetics of my real body.
Okay these are just ideas that I’ve been thinking about. I’m using voice to text on my phone to write this post. Autocorrect is really really funny. More to come eventually. bye
I am really bad about wasting food and wasting money on food. Maybe it is part of my eating disorder, I don’t know. I go shopping but half the stuff I by goes bad or I give it away. Ask my friend Roland at work. He is the lucky recipient of most of my excess.
This is todays spoils that went into the break room. At least I’m bringing joy to someone.
This is something I’m working on in therapy. Why do I do this? What do I use food for? Why the excess? Why?
Today I went with my friend Susan to the Los Angeles Municipal Art Gallery for an opening. We had to park at the bottom of the complex and hike up a couple sets of stairs that looked like these…I made it to the top, barely. I was out of breath and I felt like my legs were going to give out. I am embarrassed to say this. I shouldn’t be this out of shape. (Ugh, there I go using the word should again). We had to wait a couple of minutes to go inside so I could catch my breath. My throat and lungs were visibly stressed. At least to me they were. After a while I was fine. I previously talked about the idea of not trusting my body. I still don’t. I am afraid if I do anything strenuous like jogging, running, hiking on trails uphill or walking up a lot of stairs I will eventually have a heart attack. This may sound a bit crazy, but because my dad and grandpa died so young of heart attacks, I am afraid. I am working through this. One way is this blog. Another is, I am going to therapy and also I just started back with my eating disorder support group. Plus, I am going to make an appointment with my doctor for a physical. I will express my fears with him and see what he says.
At least in Second Life, Gracie can run, fly, climb thousands of steps and not feel anything but delight. Sigh!
Had a really lovely evening at the opening tonight at The Los Angeles Art Association. It is always so nice to get out and about, see great art, chat with old friends and make new friends. Every opening I go … Continue reading
I have been thinking a lot about death lately. I work in an ER so I see it more than most. It strikes every age and is so sad when it happens. Especially for those left behind. I think about … Continue reading
So I joined a couple of online dating sites today. I have tried these in the past but didn’t stick with them for long because I either got bored or just thought they were meat markets. Plus I was tired … Continue reading
I just liked that word for some reason. It rolls off the tongue in an interesting manner. Because I’ve been busy at work all I got for ya is this obligatory sunset pic on this cold crisp day.
Please join me this Sunday for the closing party of Ce n’est pas une peinture, my LEA Artist in residence installation. PJ Trenton took some wonderful photos the other day of my interview with Rowan Derryth. Check them out on … Continue reading