Now the other day when I said I had an alter ego, I hope you guys didn’t run away screaming or laughing. People get scared when you start talking about stuff like this.
I believe we all have alter-ego’s. We all have those characters that sit on our shoulders right? The id and ego? Those parts of us that tell us this is right or wrong, fun or scary, that support us or kick us in the butt when we need it. How many of you talk to yourselves?
Gracie Kendal is a part of me that I have brought to life through the 3D online virtual world of Second Life. While it may seem like I hide behind Gracie via a computer, I believe I am actually showing more of myself than I ever have before. With Gracie I am fearless. With Gracie I have less inhibitions, I am more outspoken and I care less what people think of me.
The physical world, the world I am in at this very moment sitting at my desk listening to helicopters fly overhead, can be a scary, stupid, self conscious place. There are so many stressors that affect how you think of yourself it is really hard to think period. Or you over-think which leads to the anxiety that overwhelms our society.
I have been thinking about my relationship with Gracie lately. As I type she is on the screen with me. While I am working on several different projects I am also going to be focusing on ‘Who is Gracie Kendal?’ The past few years as I have looked at Gracie as an aspect of my personality, I have learned a lot about myself. I am not sure which direction this is going to go, but I am looking forward to it.